sulit ditebak

Getting preoccupied with a single leaf, you'll miss the tree. Getting preoccupied with a single tree, you'll miss the entire forest. You'd better keep the vision wide, or you can't see the 'whole' thing. - Vagabond

when you can't see the smallest thing, how come you can read the littlest message? it's pretty obvious that life always be a secret keeper about themselves, by living it to the detail, start believing there is something we can do about life's hardness, secrets just soon to be revealed.

but i feel unanswered, left out here. it's hard to keep your chin up while the chest-stabbing problems are everywhere. i should go for a couple hours, most of the ideas often come out from mumbling and tracing my own steps. unpredictable yet have to expect something more from it, life is. huaaaaaah...

even it is so unpredictable, like I just can't control the time flowing everyday, problems always keep falling from somewhere, well maybe I'd better soften myself a bit, maybe I should manifest my own destiny. With the smallest detail everyday. you may not be able to create every moment in your life enjoyable, but you can do something with the detail. and from the detail you accumulate til turns out to be details, you would start your own life with less unpredictable, because you often to create the smallest details, you 're good at making the big moment. right?

I have troubles, you have more, we all have it. most people can sleep with it, most people can't. It's tiring but it's more real than short term life's relaxation. we all have endorphin hormone, when you push yourself too hard, soon it will come out, and you'll be happy although the reason can't be found out anywhere. I should get an injection for more endorphin shouldn't I? time has the answer, the patience might be the real one, the answer.

so it should be concluded, I can't find the right words. so that's it. asta la vista. sorry for the unfinished stuff here. ciao!