to let go

As I went through things, also as I tried so many times just to think overly positive about regrets and disappointments, I just realize that you can't be positive if you push yourself to be it.

Don't paint the wall yet, if the wall still has a crack on it.

Painting is like the positive thoughts, and you're like the wall. If it has serious damage, and you keep continuing the painting. The wall is still damaged sir, you just painted it well. I never said positive thinking is such a big failure, it is not. But in human understanding, we should probably know about how to let go before covering it with white lies or self motivation on us.

Take an example as if you're a loner, super depressed with daily routines & having serious stress while interact with people. You couldn't categorize yourself as a pale person or in need of attention person, you're emotionally broken. You should know what you're into, whether it is normal or not. You have the straight line that divides and categorizes your personality&mood from productive, amazing, good, normal, bad, dying, and emotionally broken.

When you come to bad situation and your mood sticks the same with the situation, at first positive thinker might save themselves from the mood trap. As the thing goes, as life goes deeper, harder, and getting more realistic each day. You will find out that "this is just not right, not at all". Because every time you start to cover your awful life with positive amazing mindset. Your real life will be buried, they're not gone, they're buried, inside of you.

And the real problem is longing out to come out to the surface. When you're alone and you wanna hear the sound of your heartstrings, you don't hear anything but your past emotion and confusion. So there are some tips from me to keep you away from terrible stress :

1. Feeling is as important as logic
Most people don't use their feeling instead using their own logic, or viceversa. When you're happy, it's normal. And when you're sad, it's normal too! Don't get lost between mood and feeling, mood is 1-2 hours term, feeling is like longer term from mood. You should be often to ask "What do I feel? Why do I feel that way?". The more detail the question, the better. And when you know what is the feeling inside of you, don't be hurry to fix it, listen to it like 5 minutes, and you can move on after you feel better, if you don't, meditate! Pray! God is always bigger than your problem.

2. Tell your amazing day, also your horrible day
You might think that your problem is too complex for any other people, you might think you're always step ahead from the others. People won't help you the way you expect, people will help you in the smallest way, it helps you to spread the burden to everyone. It's not about they understand you or not, it's about the ancient social activities, when the cavemen failed their hunt, they would share their problem with the others. Is that right? Always is.

3. Do nothing to be a thing, to be you
It takes a bravery to fight the others everyday, to compete in this crazy life, but it also takes an amazing effort just to listen to yourself. Ten minutes a day, do nothing, and trace back your path of life and ask yourself "Where am I? Did I go too far? Do I enjoy my own life?". It might sound stupid, but stupid as stupid does, but the stupid one doesn't do this thing, this thing belongs to people who want to be freed.

4. Let go (if you have to)
Lao tze told us to not to fight the destiny. There are things that can be changed, you with your freewill might find this thing interesting, but to be freed and to be big is not about changing everything, change people life just for your own advantage, it's about making the your own vision to be bigger each day, to see the larger effect about what you'll do, to make the more effective and better the goodness that we practice everyday. Let it go, not because you must, but because you now have a bigger vision about it.

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I might not be a good writer. This is just like a small step toward a big epidemic change, the dream of me that people can share their life with the others, openness is everywhere, and sympathy is inside everyone's heart. Thanks for friend of mine for inspiring me to write this stuff, and Nada Surf as a great band to give me such goosebumps everytime I hear it, "inside of love" is one of the track that makes my day. I'm tired. It's cold over here. Ciao!